It has been a long time since I updated my journal or even really posted as often as I like to but a lot has been going on and I wanted to share it with you.
Up till this past January I had been working out and seeing great results. 41 pounds lost and feeling great but there was something bothering me. There was a knot in my stomach that I foolishly left to my self diagnosis via Web Md which told me could be a knot of fat so I didn’t think much of it. I started feeling discomfort and went to the doctor about it. They told me it was a hernia and that I had to have surgery. Well I went for my surgery and went under anesthesia and was suddenly woken up by the surgeon who was telling me that there was a football sized tumor in my abdomen. This freaked me out and sent me on a long course of doctor’s visits that I will spare you. But the stress of this caused me to stop caring for myself on the exercise front. I stopped working out and began to eat emotionally. It was very discouraging because I had purchased all new clothes for the spring/summer and when they arrived I couldn’t wear any of them. I could feel my weight creeping up. I ignored it. I finally went to a surgeon that told me that I had Fibroid Tumors. 21 of them. Because of these tumors my abdomen was pushing out and I was experiencing other symptoms. I will have to have surgery in 2 weeks.
Im sharing this because I want anyone that takes the time to read this to take care of yourself if you are sick or feel something is off. Don’t wait. Because of my waiting things got worse than they needed to be. I miss my old life very much, I miss my gym very much. I have gained 22 pounds. I feel pretty bad about it. I can tell you that posting every now and then just reminded me of the things I used to enjoy, but I couldn’t bring myself to share what was happening. Now that some time has passed and I have accepted what has happened, I can’t wait to get back on track.
I hate to not share these things and act like everything is perfect when it is not. I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourselves. I will be stocking up a good queue for when I am in the hospital and look forward to updating you on new victories in weight loss. Much love to you all.